Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in ashleighj's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
1:48 pm	Deja Vu Dear Friends, It was 6:13. Stepping off the same flight as last weekend was complete deja vu. This weekend seemed to take months and I am completely exhausted from it. However, it was also a million times more fun. Our zone placed 4th out of 13 zones, beating many California zones, a huge upset. Not only that, but I also made the National Team!! Well, the B team... but still, it was very exciting. La Jolla was sooo much fun. One of the best parts about this weekend was the company, all the girls on the zone team were so nice and so much fun. It was exciting to have Bernie with us this trip, too. I am sooo worn out I need to go sleep and study for some more finals! Love Always, Ashleigh Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 27th, 2004
10:58 am	School is Over! Dear Readers, Friends, Family, Enemies, Lover, Well, not quite, but classes are at least finished! I'll never have another damned Chemistry class to sit through. However, finals start in one hour from now! Latin is today. I really should have studied more but what are you gonna do? At least I got an insane amount of sleep last night. Seriously, it was about 11 hours. Tomorrow I have to take another final, English! This one will be a cram all night kind of thing. Really, I just have to memorize Vocabulary and review works. I mean, I read them once, I should remember, c'est correct? Ahhh, French. Directly after I take this exam @ 7 AM, I will be on my way back to California. Hopefully, it will be better than last weekend... I mean... that never happened soo.... Anyhow, When I get back from this weekend of death, I will have a full day to recover! Woo hoo! Only three finals to go after that... wondrous! Chemistry is probably going to be the biggest bitch of them all. The maximum time I can spend on each exam is 2 and 1/2 hours. So tops, I only have 12 and 1/2 hours left of being a Junior and until summer! That deserves a hell yeah, HELL YEAH! I already have fun plans for my first week out... like O.C... haha as in Ocean City, not Orange County, and a trip to Frostburg. I am tagging along with Christopher to register for his classes for next fall. Speaking of classes, if I don't get chosen in the lottery for Psychology I am going to have a cow because you know some little bitch is going to get it while I actually need the learning experience considering I actually want to be a psychologist. Well, I suppose I should study a little bit because I still have an hour and 10 minutes until my exam commences. Love, Ashleigh Current Mood: rejuvenated (Comment on this)
Monday, May 24th, 2004
7:40 pm	The Aftermath California. It was so bad and will never been mentioned again. Furthermore, Exams are approaching faster than a speeding bullet. Cliche, but I'm not in the mood for creativity. I am so exhausted it is ridiculous. There is nothing left to do but complain. So waaahh. I keep staring at my backpack. Maybe it will vanish if I hope hard enough. The cycle of procrastination leading to a late night scramble to finish work is starting again. WoO HoO. Okay, since all I do is complain I am going to try to state one positive thought for the day. Here is goes... Thinking. [Silence.] Wait for it... [Silence with a cricket chirp.] Okay! I got it! I got an 90 on my last Algebra 2 test, EVER! In addition, I got an 80 on my last Chemistry test so I can keep my B- for the quarter. I will leave these small feats alone without mentioning how horrible my exams will be. Dammit. I ruined it. I suppose I need another positive thought to counter that. It is almost summer! Wait, that invokes a negative thought of my hatred for school and longing to break away. This is tough... I guess one positive thing to fall back on is that I have wonderful friends who I love very much. (Especially Brooke and Christopher!!) There. I found something very positive with no maladies attatched. My work is finished. On this note, I shall retire. Tootles! Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
8:21 pm	California... OH SHIT! Wow, suddenly I only have one day of a school before I embark on a journey to a most lovely place with some of the most lovely people I know. I still have incredibly mixed feelings. It is going to be both fun and exciting as well as exhausting and challenging. I hope like hell I can work the skills that I have picked up in the past few years to help my team be victorious. All I really want is to win for them. I am so afraid of letting them down. I think I just recently realized how important the polo team is to me. I really need to stop bitching because I know I will miss it when it is all over. I am having the time of my life and I am so lucky to be a part of it all. I do not want to realize this too late, but rather, I should try to enjoy the time of my life NOW, while it is still happening. So that it my goal, not letting moments slip past my fingertips the way every shot seems to do at practice. (Just a silly little metaphor.) School. I had a complete epiphany today. It seems to me that this entire semester I have completely forgotten how to work hard. Instead of trying to pick good habits back up, I have taught myself how NOT to care. As a direct result, I believe I will be earning a few C's this quarter. I have no one to blame but myself. I hate it when scapegoats are not available. IT IS YOUR FAULT, I TELL YOU!!!! ALL YOURS!!! Their, you are now my scapegoat. Deal with it. Is it really too good to be true, or am I still being cynical? I think I am far too cynical for my age. This is absolute insanity! I love it. Current Mood: geeky (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
9:58 pm	Hiccups. Right now, I have the hiccups. I have had them three times today. Every time I get the hiccups I think of the man who had hiccups for 30 years straight. Can you imagine? It frightens me so much that when I really think about it, I scare away my own hiccups. Oh wow, I think it just *hiccup* dammit. Anyways, I have so much going on right now, I wish I wasn't so tired from this mono bull. I really do not have the time for an illness right now. I have school to finish, which is actually looking pretty good right now, I'm not going to lie. However I have prom, than California trip, more school and exams, another California trip, more exams and SAT 2's! I am swamped until June 6th. Oh yeah, than I start work again. It makes me sad to think that all the things I have been looking forward to this month are being besmirched by mono. The second California trip to San Diego is HUGE! This is my last year to make the Youth National Team... I hope mono does not ruin it. Though, in the past, some of the best games I have played have been when I am under the weather, so you never know. It would not be so wondrous if I made the team because than I would have to go back to California for most of June, and that just does not fit with my plans. I would not complain if I did make it. I'm sure I would feel incredibly accomplished. Kelly D always helps relieve pressure because she is like, oh please, this is no big deal. It always helps to remind myself that this is something that is supposed to be fun. Quite often, it is not. It is time for me to study Latin... because I need at least one A in an academic class this semester! Ciao! Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 6th, 2004
4:22 pm	Highs and Lows Wow, what an emotional roller coaster! Today had so many highlights and lowlights, it is insanity. I figured out a way to raise my Chemistry grade and I raped my in-class writing on Great Gatsby. I was so excited right after school that and I went to see Chris @ a tennis match @ AACC... and my mom called to let me know I have mono. I'm so pissed because this is like the worst time in my life to get sick. I know I am going to have to pull through and hopefully I will manage my time better to get more rest. This sucks. Especially because it means no more kissing! :[ Sorry, Chris. However, tonight is the Picnic @ the Navy so that should be good for one or two laughs... or just free food... Better go study! At least 2morrow is Friday... and then one more week of real school... AND PROM!!! Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
8:41 pm	Over the "Hump" Okay, so finally Wednesday is through, which means that we are over the mid-week hump. I got my progress reports which were way below par, and not in the golf sense. I have a C+ in English and Algebra 2 and C in Chemistry!!!! EEK!!!! I CANNOT get a C in ANYTHING or UMD will reject me so fast I'll get the rejection before I even apply. Not really. Also, I have to get a B in Algebra 2 or I will be denied a spot in Pre-Calculus next year. Not so hot. I am just trying to focus on one day at a time and hope for the best and try to keep my stress level below par, IN the golf sense. Prom is merely a week and two days away!!! It seems like yesterday it was 3 weeks away. I have so much to do before then... especially buy my tickets! The check list includes: 1) buy tickets ($58 + $25) 2) pay of payments for tuxedo ($77) 3) buy jewelry (approx. $30) 4) buy hand bag (approx. $20) 5) get nail appt.- $40 6) figure out hair style- $35 7) decide/ buy makeup- (approx. $15) Yes, it seems the issue is not getting the items, I know where to look. The problem is the money. I have none. Just looking at figures I still have to spend about $250!!! It seems like an awful lot of money for one night. It will be worth it though because it should be a blast. Maybe I will win a cool prize at the After Prom Party... like a PRS guitar or free gym membership to Big Vanilla... time shall tell... A Random Thought: You know that nursery rhyme that went, "Rub a dub, dub, dub, 3 men in a tub?" Yeah, that was so wrong... 3 men in a tub?!?! Think about it. Summer fever. My current mood is directly related to the weather. I had a really awful academic day and an even worse performance at practice... but for some reason I feel very content. Perhaps I am also well rested. Speaking of rest, I should probably get some... but first I need to finish my much neglected Chemistry homework and find quotes for my Great Gatsby in-class writing. I HAVE to get a good grade on that. Or it is over. UMD is over. MY LIFE IS OVER. Okay, that is too extreme. Words of Wisdom to myself: Relax (Comment on this)
Monday, May 3rd, 2004
8:09 pm	Just Another Manic Monday The events of today began when I was awakened by Brooke around 6:00 AM. My eyes were droopy as I dragged myself up to my parent's bathroom for an inviting shower. Damn, its Monday, again. The shower is the best part of my day. Hot, soothing water. I thought about the bull shit school day I was about to endure. What might become of me? I was savagely raped by my History and Chemistry Tests today. What a bummer. I fear that University of Maryland is slipping away from my grasp, as though I ever had hold of it. Am I too ambitious, or following a dream? I think constant failure makes me dread it more. School was quite a drag. In addition to the tests I failed, I had math class. This best part was getting back a test. Finally, a grade better than a C+! Sigh of relief. After School I had to get my blood drawn. The will run all sorts of wonderful tests to make sure I am not anemic, insomniac, or I have mono. I know it is none of the above. I just need sleep. I finally got home and got a text message from Chris and he had a break from work at 4:30. I made him a sandwich and spent at least a few minutes chatting with him. Oh how the time flies when you are lost in someone else's eyes. This was by far the highlight of my day. It is 8 PM... I still have yet to commence with my school work. Ah, how school work has become such a chore. I am too intent on it being the summer. Working will be fun. How I love my job. Lallie. The name makes me smile. Cicadas are coming. If they are not every bit as frightening as people are saying I will be sorely disappointed. It will be like a horror movie that looks thrilling in the previews but really, is quite dull. I hate bugs. I know they won't hurt but my how those beady eyes burn into your skin. I have the willies already. I miss my sister. Listening to her tapes in the Benz reminds me of the good old days. She and Dane are destined to be together, I know it. The rain is keeping me down. Note the lack of exclamations in the entry. I blame it for not letting me get my work done. I ought to go to California to rid myself of this misery. How I cannot part with Maryland... or my dream of UMD. List of things to do: -Get my Jewel CD back from Chris. -Do my homework, regularly. -Stop thinking about the summer and start acting in the present. -Stop worrying about everything. -Listen to Bob Marley to raise my poor spirit. -SLEEP Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)